~*because i got high....

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

~*when is enough, enough?

Being sick is a lonely thing. People around you can care for you, support you and all, but in the end it's you against the egg like lump. Ok, lumps sound scary, what about nodule... nah too long a word. So anyways, yea, there has been a lump in my throat the size of half an egg for the past 2.5 weeks. it came up out of nowhere, it grew 1.5cm within 12 days and somehow manage to pump itself up another cm within 3days, making my long weekend "holiday" a real sucky one. Adding to that, I've also been down with fever for the past few nights. Sucky.

About the lonely part, well, everyone around you are usually more freaked out about it than you, usually la. So most of the time they'll tell you it'll be fine, it's nothing serious, don't have to worry about it etc etc. Well... it's sweet and encouraging, and bless their heart for caring, but sometimes, you just want to talk about it normally like any other things. Sigh... yea. I am not scared and am not worrying much about it, but I am pissed. Pissed cos it wasn't supposed to be affecting my life in any way, but apparently, that's not true. Hurts so bad this morning, I nearly cried eh, after letting the doctor stick giant needles into my neck to let out blood from the thingy to release some tension it was causing.

Ok... enough whining. Time for some zzz...