~*words are all we have to give... now...

Still a smitten kitten but long distance is a big big challenge! I am an impatient, impatient person. When I am in love, yes love, I also get paranoid, over analytical and plain paranoid. It's not easy for me to be positive and sunshiney and all that. But I have to be. :) and I will try to be. I can't force things, I can't make it go faster, there's basically nothing much for me to do, really, actually. I made a choice, and a decision to accept him and to want him, the universe will have to work its magic now. I just have to be patient... but, I am an impatient person! So it sucks. Big time. And now I am rambling on my blog, cos he's on my fb, myspace, gtalk, even ym, so this IS the only place I can ramble! Well, ramble I did! and ramble somemore I sure will!

~*smitten kitten...

I am so a smitten kitten these days... it's a nice feeling. The only downside is, he's so far away. I've known him for 2.5 years, I think. Our mails combined can become a book by now. Our few hour chats flew by without me even noticing. Feelings for him didn't just happen recently. It started way back, but he's so far, and I never thought it could be mutual, so I just let that slide.

When he was here however, those feelings surfaced again. I was a bundle of nerves the first day we finally met up. It was awkward but not unpleasant. He's english, so yea, way more proper than I would've liked... haha... even in person, the hours spent talking just flew by. Hours turned into days that turned into a whole weekend of hanging out together, and it still feels too short... and then he had to leave for a week to another country, and we're still, "just friends".

It happened when he came back here again after his week away... the day he finally took my sweaty hand in his... while crossing the road, and never let go since :) corny, yea... but I could not stop smiling when that happen. I've been single for so long, I've forgotten how it felt like... and it was him... And it was... sigh... lovely.

I don't want to put a label on us yet, but it's nice to know that his family now knows about me. As for mine, I'll leave that for the day he propose :) yea yea... you're thinking that soon, but I want to put it out to the universe that this is and will be the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I want this to be my One. I was not looking, and I am glad he was just there all along.

~*am i having withdrawals?

Is that possible??? Can one have withdrawals when your someone has to leave for where he's from, after only 2 weeks of being together - as in started getting together, together?? Omg. I did not expect to be this affected by his home going. Suddenly hit me that he's no longer just a text away. Damn. Have to go back to emails... :(

How to tahan la, it's only the 2nd day. Damn. Nvm, time heals all wounds... just give me another week... or two, and I'll be fine. Sigh......

~*one week from today...

... one week from today, I'll be in beautiful Bali. Sun, sea and literally surf. I should be real happy and excited. I am thinking of the last embrace instead. 6 months is not that long... till we share another kiss in the cold winter... sigh...

~*starts in my toes...

...finally here in person and in my arms. Maybe not everything I hoped for or more, but I am learning to accept... and it's not bad :)
Just wish we have one more day...

~*Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane
But we are hidin' in a safer place
Under the covers stayin' safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm...

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever, wherever, where ever you go
Wherever, wherever, where ever you go