~*la Muse...on our tanned little shore...

I only know a few of their songs. I can't sing any of them. I can't tell you their names. But they were freaking A.W.E.S.O.M.E!!! The energy, the mad skills, the voice! They sounded amazing throughout the entire show, even after an hour and a half! A super super massive live band!
Seriously!

~*Still recovering from the head banging... well worth it though...ouch!
~**yes, yes..I've gone tube crazy...let me be, please?:p

~*the two towers...

Sigh. It is the last day of my long break. Back to work on Monday again. Back to the normalcy in the towers, back to irritating a certain cube mate who apparently misses her noisy cube mates. I am so dreading that.
Arr... the bluest Monday of the year, for now, I am sure.

So, how was your week? Hope you guys had a good one. Mine was ok. Pretty tiring though. Visited the hometown and hung out with the relatives for a bit. Catching up on Idols and the new CSI, commuting everyday from Wednesday till today, back and forth from parents' to my own little abode, for some alone time and club time last night. Definitely taking toll on me.
I know a lot of people who commutes like that everyday for work.
But I am so not commuter.

Oh yea, was down with fever, sore throat and the works on Wednesday, during my break. I know, what luck I have! And for what reason, I am not sure but the doctor was advising me to "go out. Do things that you like/enjoy...bla bla..."
I just looked at him. Blankly. I was like wtf? And in all earnestness i told him... "Doc, I AM Seriously not feeling well, and i don't think I'll enjoy going out at all right now..."
He seemed to have forgotten why I went to see him in the first place.
I get the weirdest doctors. Like seriously. I still remember the first gynae i went to... ok. We're so not going there. Moving on.

Anyways, just came back from a long, family and some guests kind of dinner. Seriously beat but had to watch Heroes that dad tivoed for me. No time to catch its rerun tomorrow, cos I'll be going for Muse's concert tomorrow night. I so hope I don't run into cubie and the gang at the concert.
So not hot right now (after all the festive binging, no thank you!)
Not exactly a fan of Muse, but Jlo got the tix for all of us, and I am pretty sure it's going to be quite alright, since they were supposedly awesome live.

I think I better be hitting the bed soon. Long day tomorrow. Beat. beat. beat.

~*Hey momma, you got your blog now?

~*more food please...

Hello. It's the first day of chinese new year! Am I excited, not really.
Am I digging the long holidays, hell yeah! This is the 3rd day of my break.
So far, so good. No substance craving yet. A little indulgence right now would be really nice but nope, not craving yet.

Woke up this morning, feeling kinda odd. In the past, we'll all wake up on chinese New Year's morning at grandma's, a couple of hours drive away, to the sound of old, and i mean REALLY old chinese new year tunes blaring from grandma's opposite neighbour. The old guy (I just assumed he's old, but he must be!) has got some pretty good system, I must say, but it's the same ol tunes year in, year out.
This year though, it was a pretty quiet morning.
No sound of grandma's neighbour's kids running around.
No ol tunes blaring (not that I mind this bit), and no grandma to wish happy chinese new year to as she sits at the doorway in front of the house, waiting for us to come downstairs, wish her and receive our red packets from her.
Woke up in parents' place, in my room this morning not grandma's.
Grandma passed on less than a year ago.
And, old traditions will slowly move on with her, giving way to them new traditions soon.

I think I am going to have myself a really quiet one this year. I don't think I will be doing any open houses or visiting.

By the way, just caught Little Miss Sunshine. I've enjoyed it, thoroughly. The most disturbing part has to be the pageant kids all dressed and made up looking like little barbies/persons, acting all grownup-ish... freaky.
Can't people just let kids be kids while they ARE still kids?

~*happy new year!

~*I so love this scene...sweet!

~*a knapsack on my backkkkkk.....

I saw the most inspiring thing at breakfast this morning. A scroungy looking backpacker, with his big ass bag pack on his back.

Oh, how I wish I could trade places with him. Go a wandering, without a care in the world. Troubling my thoughts with nothing except where to explore and what to eat.
Things of dreams, I tell you.

Pimpy might have a hard time imagining my in scroungy backpacker gear... but you know I can be tough like that right? :p

Anyways, yep, that's my inspiration to save more money and hopefully in a year or two, take a couple of months off work just to live out this dream.
Today will be Day 1:Planning.

~*ooh ooh, I will not be seen around the towers for the next 10 freakin days!!!
I'll holler...

~*pink madness all around...

I never thought I'll ever say this. All the pinks,reds, pillows, hearts, flowers... and other sappy, supposedly "love" inducing paraphernalia on display or sold around the mall, are making me sick.
Like seriously. I have no idea when or how I've reached this level of cynicism. I swear! And by god, I do like pink and red.

I dunno. I just find the whole thing extremely, fake. And I quote my aussie bff "merps_mjk: well people are sheep".
Maybe I am not in love. Maybe I don't have anyone in mind to "pour my love unto" (hahahahaha....). Maybe I am just plain old mean and cynical.
Or maybe, for the lack of other reasons, I just sincerely think that this V day thing is overly commercialized and devoid of meaning now, to me that is. I actually cringed everytime I receive a text wishing me happy valentine's today (no offense folks, it's really sweet of u guys though).
I remember writing about the day last year, and how it was my 3rd without a valentine (eew... i gotta stop using the word now!). So this will be the 4th year, and you know what? I am loving it...

Speaking of which, was going through my old blog, on another url today (for the lack of more entertaining bits to lay my freshly painted nails on), and boy, was I a bitchy 28yr old, and I actually find the writing more entertaining, for my taste, that is. I am too mellowed down this year. Drats.

Anyways, me not being in favor of the V day does not mean others should be as bitchy about it as I am... if it makes you happy I guess. So, have a good one yo'll.
Have fun romancing anything, anyone under the stars (or ya sheets!) tonight...

~*strawberries and honey awaiting me at home yo'll... what? It's just food! :p

~~*ooh ooh... 1 more day to a looong vacation yo'll...

~*3 days a counting...

Ooommpphh... I am STUFFED!!! Totally stuffed my face too much today, and that's only breakfast and lunch! :p Ok, I am totally turned off by food right now. I think it'll only be broth, broth and more broth for the next few days! NO MORE CHICKEN!!! Aye.

Woke up late these 2 days. Yesterday's excuse was couldn't sleep the night before. Don't know if it's the damn, damn hot weather or what, but only managed to catch a couple of hours sleep before heading off for work. And this morning, dunno if it's because the weather's nice and balmy after a whole night of rain or what, but still woke up late, and I am still sooo sleepy right now. Just one of them days where your eyes just can't stay open eventhough you're totally swamped with work. Maybe some mandarin oranges might wake me up :p

So, I had a pretty active weekend, considering I was still recovering from the ear thingy. Oh, that's another lament, can't be blasting no pods at the moment. Sigh.

Anyways, let's see, spent the whole Friday at the doctor's, who asked if I would like him to introduce "eligible guys" for me, when I told him I was single. Then was at the cafe to check some mails, and then home the whole afternoon, trying, very hard to NOT die from the heat, and then out club hopping with the girls, since JLo needed some "consoling". Managed to pack in 4 joints that night... At the end of which I was almost deaf, but I was sure I was pretty alright about it though.

Woke up Saturday afternoon, had some nutritious meal of instant noodles - for the extreme lack of will to go get food, a bit more lazing and the next thing we knew, we were in a cold, dark room for almost 5 hours. Just the 3 of us, lean(...not!), mean, karaoke machines :p Yep, I was legally deaf afterwards.

Did nothing much on Sunday, another killer heat day, just shopping to escape from the heat, had a little dinner do at home while watching a bloody bloody (literally) movie. Very relaxing :D

Anyways, it's Tuesday now and I am just only recapping the weekend's affairs due to the crap load of work yesterday, actually today as well. Sometimes, I really wish I had more time to write about more important, informative pieces. But, not only does that require more effort to read and research (gasp!)which I really didn't have time for - too caught up in between working and wasting time with other equally non beneficial things.

Really admire people who write about serious issues, informative, documentary like pieces , but I've resigned to the fact that, this blog thing is going to be a place for me to spill my deep (not as if I have that kinda depth though :p), inner thoughts. Just a place to share, vent, to keep in touch... and maybe make a friend or two the in process.

~*I just saw something really horrifying! 14 freaking problems in my queue to attend to! GaarrrrRRrrrrrrrrr......

~*smiles...

Too much negativity surrounding me. Too... too much. I think it hit a saturation point last night. Negativity in the bacon shop, negativity from internal/personal conflicts, plus I am still just recovering from the bout of ailment. Sigh. Bad aura all around! And I am S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D out!

The thing is, I am not sure, but I have a nagging thought if I was the one who has subconsciously allowed myself to get into that level of negativity, letting stress get the better of me, for allowing myself to "indulge" in that melancholic state, for just a bit too long, and only realize it when it began to take a darker turn - read: anxiety attacks, and the works.

There I was in my room, heart palpitating, body restless, mind a clutter, and I didn't know what was wrong with me, but I knew I had to stop... and breath. Got my pod out, search for songs to calm down, and the first one up was Avril's My Happy Ending...how appropriate, then there was Christina's Hurt and other similar sounding stuff. Yea, these stuff calms me down, and I finally went to sleep, with a conscious decision to not let stress eat into me like that again.

~*It's a new day now... wish me luck...

~*cheerios...

No apparent reason for the above title. Just felt like saying that.

I am feeling much better now. Thanks guys for the wishes. *Big Hugs*

Still in the office, just done with some support jobs. Waiting for the girls to finish their running around the towers' park. Didn't join them since I am still recovering. probably get started with it again next week.

Heard the news today. Had to go for some professional certification courses... Online. Without reference books. Without tutors. Cost 12freakingK and we are to be bonded to the bacon shop for 2 freaking years?
No freaking way. Nuff' said.

~*dedicated to whine...

I don't remember if I've whined about this yet but anyways, been off physically since last week. Started off with pain on the right side of the throat, somewhere behind the wisdom tooth (wisdom...ha ha). Then Friday, the pain started creeping upwards to my right ear, and within hours, I think, I started having some tear, And cuss inducing migraine. Needless to say, Friday night was spent in bed, before 6pm.

Saturday, after much persuasion, went for the high school reunion thingy.
One word. Regret.
Regret reason 1: Migraine still trying to split my skull.
Regret reason 2: Food sucked. Parting with that amount of dough for that kind of ambiance and food does not make a girl with splitting headache happy.
Regret reason 3: Could not really eat due to the aching throat.

Finally went to the doctor's on Sunday. The pain was seriously getting on my last nerve and there's just so much extra-dosaged painkillers one can pop in 3days.
Apparently, I am having an infection. Of what, I dunno. I was told it started from the throat and went up to the ear. There was apparently pus in the middle or inner ear or what not. I dunno. I just know that after 2 courses of antibiotics, my chest, throat, ear still hurts and I am still having some hearing problem on the right ear. I dunno. I dunno. I dunno! Cursed.

~*enough already...

I can think of younger days when living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do
I could never see tomorrow, but I was never told about the sorrow

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend a this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again

I can still feel the breeze that rustles through the trees
And misty memories of days gone by
We could never see tomorrow, no one said a word about the sorrow

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again

~*how can you mend a broken heart - Al Green